So I've been in denial and have managed to avoid posting an update regarding my 20x30 Progress. So here goes.....
It's not going. I should have set the goal to GAIN 20 by 30. THAT I could do.
I haven't actually gained anything but I haven't lost anything either. I'm walking on my Treadmill and I'm trying to eat better but nothing is changing weight wise. This is my problem, (I know what you're thinking, "girl, you have way more problems then that" Whatever. I know my issues and I almost always embrace them!) I am an instant results kind of girl. If I walk two miles a day - I should lose 2 pounds a day. It's simple math. ;) But that's not the way life works (and I was never good with math). It goes back to why my Beloved won't let me have a garden - I expect growth the next day. And apparently that's just irrational. Who knew?!
I need to refocus.
So I'm going home today to try out our new EA Active Sports game for the Wii - and hopefully I won't die. I'll let you know.
Until next time....
Monday, January 31, 2011
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Maybe I'm just selfish
Grrrrrr.......Why is it that Family has the ability to make you SO RAGEY but you have to love them anyway?! (This will be a venting blog - you've been warned.)
My Father's family lives in Louisiana. And I can count on ONE hand the amount of times they've been to Houston to visit us. And I don't hold this against them! There are more of them then there are of us so it's easier for us to go there. It's tradition that we spend Thanksgiving with them. We've only missed a few years due to other obligations but this year was the first year I refused to go. Apparently the older I get - the more persnickety I get. They've made NO effort to visit me. None. Zero. They always want me to visit them but have never said "hey, we want to come see your house" or anything like that. It's always take with them and never give. Well, my Give has Gone Out.
Enter the Rage.
While I can count on ONE hand the times they've visited my mother, I know they've been to Houston more times then that. Because they post pictures on Facebook and we're all friends. Classy! "Hey - here's pictures from our trip to Houston WHEN WE DROVE BY FAMILY BUT DIDN'T CALL!" Seriously?!?! That seems rude to me. Why would you drive over 4 hours and not call your family while you're there?! And then proceed to repeatedly ask that they come to you. Maybe I'm just being selfish.
This started with our wedding. They canceled two days before. There was a hurricane and they didn't want to get stuck away from home. A little part of me could understand. But the bigger part, the part that recognized they were the only living representation of my Father didn't. And still doesn't. If the roles were reversed, I would have driven through a hurricane to get there. And knowing I wasn't important enough and my father wasn't important enough - breaks my heart. Still. And I can't really stand to be around them. It breaks my heart all over again every time I see them. I've been to all their weddings I was invited to. Every one. And when I needed them to be there for me - I was let down. And I'm done.
Maybe I need to work on my forgiveness this year. Just let it go and all that stuff. Maybe they'll come across this and defriend me so I won't have to see their recent trip to Houston. And maybe I'm just being a selfish brat.
But then again, maybe not.
Until next time...(when my heart rate goes back down...)
My Father's family lives in Louisiana. And I can count on ONE hand the amount of times they've been to Houston to visit us. And I don't hold this against them! There are more of them then there are of us so it's easier for us to go there. It's tradition that we spend Thanksgiving with them. We've only missed a few years due to other obligations but this year was the first year I refused to go. Apparently the older I get - the more persnickety I get. They've made NO effort to visit me. None. Zero. They always want me to visit them but have never said "hey, we want to come see your house" or anything like that. It's always take with them and never give. Well, my Give has Gone Out.
Enter the Rage.
While I can count on ONE hand the times they've visited my mother, I know they've been to Houston more times then that. Because they post pictures on Facebook and we're all friends. Classy! "Hey - here's pictures from our trip to Houston WHEN WE DROVE BY FAMILY BUT DIDN'T CALL!" Seriously?!?! That seems rude to me. Why would you drive over 4 hours and not call your family while you're there?! And then proceed to repeatedly ask that they come to you. Maybe I'm just being selfish.
This started with our wedding. They canceled two days before. There was a hurricane and they didn't want to get stuck away from home. A little part of me could understand. But the bigger part, the part that recognized they were the only living representation of my Father didn't. And still doesn't. If the roles were reversed, I would have driven through a hurricane to get there. And knowing I wasn't important enough and my father wasn't important enough - breaks my heart. Still. And I can't really stand to be around them. It breaks my heart all over again every time I see them. I've been to all their weddings I was invited to. Every one. And when I needed them to be there for me - I was let down. And I'm done.
Maybe I need to work on my forgiveness this year. Just let it go and all that stuff. Maybe they'll come across this and defriend me so I won't have to see their recent trip to Houston. And maybe I'm just being a selfish brat.
But then again, maybe not.
Until next time...(when my heart rate goes back down...)
Monday, January 17, 2011
La La Land
I spend A LOT of time in Fictional Worlds. TV, movies, books - doesn't matter. I love them all! I frequent our Public Library so much, they laminated my book reserve name page. I was so thrilled! I love my DVR and whoever thought up the Red Box as well. Brilliant! I don't know what it is but I love my 'stories'. They bring me joy!! To disappear and be absorbed in something make believe is just awesome.
So I thought I'd start a series of blogs where I share a few of my favorites. (Because I'm in denial regarding the 20x30 and this helps. :) )
We'll start with some books.
1. The India Fan by Victoria Holt. This book was given to me by my Aunt Joy for Christmas when I was younger and I've read it at least 20 times. I love the characters and their adventures. There's drama and romance and I just love it! I've handled the book so much the cover is coming off and pages are super soft. :) I've read several of her other books and they're good but this is by far my most favorite.
2. The Harry Potter series by JK Rowling. I NEVER intended to read these books. They were published when I was a teenager so they never interested me. But in college, I took a Kids Lit class thinking it would be easy (not so much!) and the first book was required reading. And I was hooked. They are cleverly written and contain characters you love and characters you loathe. Passionately! And when my magic friends don't make it - I cry as if I was there. I also LOVE the Audio book versions of this series. It's narrated by Jim Dale who also narrated the TV show Pushing Daisies (it'll come up on a post soon enough!).
3. The Stephanie Plum series by Janet Evanovich. These were recommended by a friend and I LOVE THEM! The characters are HYSTERICAL. They combine a crazy family with crazy criminals and a girl stuck in the middle of it all. They are easy little reads that make me laugh until I cry. Every time. The setting is New Jersey so there is some bad language, if that's something you're not in to - this might not be the series for you.
I have more but that's a good start!
So go get lost in something Make Believe!!
Until next time....
So I thought I'd start a series of blogs where I share a few of my favorites. (Because I'm in denial regarding the 20x30 and this helps. :) )
We'll start with some books.
1. The India Fan by Victoria Holt. This book was given to me by my Aunt Joy for Christmas when I was younger and I've read it at least 20 times. I love the characters and their adventures. There's drama and romance and I just love it! I've handled the book so much the cover is coming off and pages are super soft. :) I've read several of her other books and they're good but this is by far my most favorite.
2. The Harry Potter series by JK Rowling. I NEVER intended to read these books. They were published when I was a teenager so they never interested me. But in college, I took a Kids Lit class thinking it would be easy (not so much!) and the first book was required reading. And I was hooked. They are cleverly written and contain characters you love and characters you loathe. Passionately! And when my magic friends don't make it - I cry as if I was there. I also LOVE the Audio book versions of this series. It's narrated by Jim Dale who also narrated the TV show Pushing Daisies (it'll come up on a post soon enough!).
3. The Stephanie Plum series by Janet Evanovich. These were recommended by a friend and I LOVE THEM! The characters are HYSTERICAL. They combine a crazy family with crazy criminals and a girl stuck in the middle of it all. They are easy little reads that make me laugh until I cry. Every time. The setting is New Jersey so there is some bad language, if that's something you're not in to - this might not be the series for you.
I have more but that's a good start!
So go get lost in something Make Believe!!
Until next time....
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Progress Report #1
It's been a week since the start of my 20x30 plan.
And I don't want to talk about it.
So....check back later...ish.
And I don't want to talk about it.
So....check back later...ish.
Monday, January 3, 2011
20 by 30
I turn 30 in 4 months. 30. Years. Old. Crazy. I made some resolutions last year which didn't pan out so I'm doing things differently this time around. I'm not considering this a 'resolution' - I'm calling it a 'Birthday Goal'. That sounds promising, right?!
I've mentioned my weight gain in previous posts and I haven't done much about it. But that's going to change! Hopefully. My Birthday Goal is to lose 20 pounds by my birthday, April 16th. That's attainable, right? That's a reasonable-ish goal...I think. I'm going to work out and make healthy food choices. Yeah! Who's with me?!
Fine! I'll do it all by myself! Whatever. ;)
So here goes. Project 20 by 30 starts tomorrow.
Today's weight: (gulp) 155 pounds
I can do this....I can do this....
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